Sometimes I wish I knew where we failed.

[xunpredictablel]

|Title| Sometimes I wish I knew where we failed.
|Rating| PG



I catch your eye and I stumble.
My thoughts fly around and fumble
My feelings for you are jumbled -
and you know I’ve never felt that way before.

I swear I remember you’re everything.
But I can’t remember your anything.
You say that I call you incessantly -
But I’m calling for a ghost.
You’re calling to a ghost.

Your eyes are dancing round me -
But you can’t really feel me there.
Your soul used to reach out and touch me,
but now all I feel is your stare.
And I’m wishing for a ghost -
You’re hoping I’m your ghost.

Of course I remember your whisper
In the earliest nights of December
You’d cry the monsters away
But the new ones found their way
Into my veins.
You’re in my veins.

And of course he wants my entire
Soul to be there by him
But he’s calling for a surgery -
Because you’re etched into my bones.
You’re etched into my skin
never to be forgotten again.

You beg me to remember
You can sense my taste of regret.
You beg me to remember
The things I’m begging forget.
Why can’t you let me forget?
I can’t let go of you yet.

But still you hold my wrist.
Though you know you are a burden.
Though you know I can’t feel
The sun anymore.
I can’t feel myself anymore.
Red against the hardwood floor.

And you dance around me with
Plastered, plastered smiles.
You made them from clay - I brought them
to-day. You made me to-day.
I shattered all your art.
I shattered all your art.

Someday you’ll forget me.
Someday you’ll resent me.
Maybe I’ll be strong enough to wait til then.
But your stone-cold stare convinces me.
Convince me again.
Lose myself again.

I can’t taste the sun when you’re raining on my face.
I can’t remember the night when you’re blackening the day.
I can’t forget your voice if you’re screaming me to sleep.
I can’t smother you out if you force me - to keep -
you.

Suns can only penetrate so much til their efforts are useless.
People can only hope so much til their hearts are wasted.