Finally, oh Finally!

[xunpredictablel]

|Title| The Angel
|Rating| PG13
|Notes| I thank Alicia graciously for this, because she was my inspiration in a time of desperate need for inspiration.



The breath fades on the windowsill,
the sheltered childhood drifting, drifting;
But I stand, and I say,
'I am not scared'
And I am not.

I stand, and I cry,
'I am not scared, your wicked ways do not trick me'
My hand is held up, high,
And it does not falter.
My tears fall fast,
But I do not falter.

My lips tremble,
But my eyes do not
Waiver.
My lord, - does not take her eye from me.
I am not true,
but it is only true for you.

The monsters
bite my legs.
And I cry, but I do not
Stumble.
I cry, but I do not
Stop.

'I can love'
I sigh, 'I can
Love, and be unafraid'
And the tree reaches down and
Cuts my cheekbone,
I brush against the
Blood, and I am not scared.
The Way of Nature
is wicked and sweet,
For I am not wicked,
but I am not sweet.

I can taste
You on my tongue,
and I am not scared.
'I cry, but I am not
Scared.'
I can feel you against me.
But I can make it
Loving.
I can rectify your
Lust.

I've missed your
Strength. I've needed your
Love. I can now see the
Sun without blocking my eyes.

An angel comes down and I reach,
My fingertips stretching up,
My toes feel like they leave the rotten leaves
to touch the angel's hands,
But He reaches down with his wings,
nearly Cradling my body between them.
And I am not scared, because he is white
and Untainted. I can sense the tears
he's Cried for me, and they fall on my
Fingertips, as if he's
Kissed them.

I'm not scared anymore, because I've seen the light.
I'm not scared anymore, but I'm still dying inside.
I'm not scared anymore, because I know the way out.
I'm not scared anymore, but I know our way down.

I'm not scared anymore to
Love you, because my ways have always
Screamed to hold you. And the light reaches towards my
Cheekbones, to hold my eyes up
Higher than the darkness I've grown accustomed.
I'm ready for you to
Hold me, because there are worse ways to
Die.
I'm ready for you to
Find me, because I'm done with trying to
Hide.

Love is worth everything,
Something I'd forgotten.
I'm not scared to touch you anymore,
because I've crawled off the lonely
Island.

Spirituality is so
Bright, to me. And thank you for showing the
Light… to me.

[Alicia's Ghost]

Caitlyn, this is absolutely beautiful. Of all the things you could have done with my small attempt to show you that it's not hopeless, this is the greatest gift. Truly. The angel, the tree, the fearlessness -- I'm relieved to know these things have not been taken away from you.

The you who isn't afraid is the you I like best. ^^

[Panda]

*claps* pretty poem indeed. While I don't know the event that inspired this emotion, the problem that was resolved, the theme is there, and very strong. Keep up the good work.